why do i care for you Will i jsut wish i could be next to you right now

ok well i havnt been on in a while not much has been goign on just liek same old stuff but i have alot on my mind one is Will and some other things too but im sooo lost right now like starting to fell depressed i mean im starting to like Will and the last time i saw him it was great i mean Emerald doesnt liek him and thats cuz he was saying stuff bout the way i dressed and some other stuff and bout Emmy and her boyfriend but later that night it was jsut me and him and it was sooo nice you dont even know it when he had his arms around me i felt soo nice and safe and when we kissed i jsut didnt want it to end and i cant stop thinking of it and how i jsut wish i could just be with him talk and stuff. talking to him on the phone its nice to hear him sounding happy and not sad, mad or depressed etc but what do i mean to him i mean do i ever have a chance or we jsut friends and that was just soemthign that happen once that kinda thing i feel like such a dumbass i mean who am i kidding nothign mayever happen in a realtionship way....right....??????? i hope he never reads this he might think im pathetic or something but i mean i really do care for him and im really starting to like him but i dont want to make a fool out of my self if it means nothing im jsut gonna shut up for now and say what else has been bugging me it has to do with Emmy and Isaac i mean i care for her alot as a friend and i would almsot do anythign for her but im at that point where i jsut want to tell her shes sooo dumb and shes pissing me off at times she thinks she loves him and this and that but shes never been with anyone else and other peopel have agreed with me on that one anyone who is older and has been in that kinda thign understands but she doesnt i just dont say anything because you know its her thing with him so be it but i still think she could dooo so much better but i cant tell her what to do with her life its not liek it matters what i say bout it but i wish she woldnt say she loves him she doesnt know what love is nor does he i think he is jsut a child a little kid who thinks he knows, but knows little of what love is watch the mit i write this im gonna fidn out emmy read this then she is gonna be mad at me for saying that but its not all what i could be saying